Chapter 89 I’m Starting to Feel Anxious
“Why are you here so early today?”
Yan Yebai personally poured a cup of coffee for Ji Naitang. Then he held a cup and sat down in front of Ji Naitang. Ji Naitang answered with a question. “Is Cen Muqi’s mom doing okay?”
“It’s not convenient for me to disclose too much about a patient’s information. After all, you aren’t her family. But I can tell you there are no major problems.”
“That’s good.”
Ji Naitang didn’t like Feng Yan very much, but Feng Yan was Cen Muqi’s mother after all. Moreover, Cen Muqi had expended a lot of effort to cheer Feng Yan up before. It could be seen how important she was in Cen Muqi’s heart. If something happened to her, Cen Muqi would definitely be sad.
“How about you? How have you been lately?”
Ji Naitang silently stirred his coffee. He thought for a while before he replied, “I’ve always been preparing myself mentally, but I don’t know when I’ll be fully prepared. I wasn’t anxious before, but now, I’m starting to feel anxious.”
Because he realized that he and Cen Muqi didn’t seem to be possible anymore. So, he started to think about the things that he had forgotten before and wanted to find Zhou Qiang. After he did everything the he should do, he could go find his brother to atone for his sins.
Yan Yebai observed Ji Naitang carefully. He reminded, “Naitang, you told me before that you’re not seeking death anymore.”
“How does this count as seeking death? I should have died.”
“Why do you have take on all the blame?”
“Isn’t it all my fault?” Ji Naitang wasn’t calm anymore. His voice started to get excited. “I chose my brother. I personally pushed him into the fire pit.”
“But you didn’t know he would……”
“I should have known.” Ji Naitang’s hands that were holding the coffee cup trembled. “How could I not know what kind of person Ji Weihong was? I was already suffering. Why should I pull him to suffer together……?”
To everyone else, Ji Weihong was a successful business man and a huge philanthropist with a happy family. But he was actually a violent sadist. His level of anger could be seen from his abuse of others. When he wasn’t too angry, he would just hit Ji Naitang’s mother Qiu Yue. When he was very angry, he would hit the young Ji Naitang too.
At that time, Ji Naitang was too young. He had thought that he was punched and kicked because he had said or done something wrong. So when Ji Weihong suggested adopting a brother for him, Ji Naitang didn’t dare to object at all.
He had thought that as long as he agreed with what Ji Weihong said, he wouldn’t be hit anymore. That was actually the case, but Ji Naitang actually suffered even more.
Ji Weihong didn’t hit Qiu Yue and Ji Naitang anymore. Instead, he hit Ji Moyu. Ji Moyu’s arrival seemed to have saved Qiu Yue and Ji Naitang.
So, Qiu Yue not only didn’t stop it, but she didn’t let Ji Naitang stop it either.
“When I was a child, I asked my mom why she wouldn’t take me and leave my dad. My mom’s answer was the same each time. She wondered what she could do when she was a woman in this situation. She couldn’t run away nor did she dare to escape. She was actually very happy when my brother came. She thought she wouldn’t be hit or suffer in the future anymore.”
Ji Naitang rarely mentioned what had happened during his childhood. Even Yan Yebai only had some basic information from Yao Yuanjing. He wasn’t clear on the specific details. It was really hard for him to imagine how one could survive in such a family.