Chapter 878: I don’t want to destroy this world (4000 words) _2
“Quick, get them out of here …”
The old security Guard’s finger was on the trigger. He pointed at number eight’s forehead and shouted angrily.
“I …”
“I can’t do it …. Number eight said weakly.
“You …”
Hearing his words, the old security Guard’s veins bulged on his forehead and he was about to shoot.
However, it was also at this moment that Lu Xin suddenly reached out and grabbed the spear, slowly lifting it up.
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At this moment, Lu Xin didn’t know what to say or do.
Teacher Xiaolu’s confession made him collapse.
In fact, what teacher Lu said did not mean much to the matter itself. It only affected her.
This was just her self-blame that made her willingly take all the blame on her.
Even number eight didn’t agree with this move.
However, her self-blame revealed a truth.
The truth didn’t have much meaning to the matter itself, but it did affect Lu Xin.
There were always some small things that were meaningless to the world, but had an absolute and decisive meaning to an individual.
How did this happen?
This was clearly the only person who believed in her. This was clearly the best friend she had ever had since she was young.
Because she believed in him, he had the motivation at the beginning. Little by little, he became the kind of person he wanted to be. Even later, when he found out that she actually had some misunderstandings about him when he was young, he still believed in her …
Even this misunderstanding had become a motivation for him to work hard and ” cure ” himself.
It was only at this moment that he realized that he was the one who had been misunderstood.
Muddle-headed, growing up without a direction, all that suffering and hard work, in the end, it all proved to be meaningless.
Everything was built on a lie …
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How could he describe his current feelings?
Was he angry?
Or did he want to destroy everything?
In fact, Lu Xin didn’t feel tired at all.
He was so tired that he didn’t even have the thought of destroying the world.
Why destroy him? he could just leave him there. It had nothing to do with him.
It had been a long time since he had felt such great panic and pressure.
And this time, it seemed to be even bigger and more terrifying. It was like a night that did not allow rejection.
Lu Xin could only stand there quietly, allowing the darkness to drown him.
He didn’t even have the strength to resist.
Perhaps not resisting was the best way to make himself comfortable.
Lu Xin’s mind was filled with frustration, and he seemed to have lost interest in everything else.
This included teacher Lu, who was overwhelmed with guilt, and the angry old security guard.
Until a gentle voice rang in his ear. “Are you really going to give up everything you’ve been searching for all this time?”
Lu Xin raised his head slightly and saw his mother.
It seemed that he was no longer in the office of this elementary school, but back in the old building.
He saw his elegant and considerate mother standing in front of him, gently reaching out and holding his hand. Beside her stood his timid little sister. Half of her body was hidden behind her mother, but there was no fear in her eyes.
He was worried.
His father stood further away, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn’t dare to.
Lu Xin’s heart trembled slightly at the sight of his family, as if there were many things he wanted to say.
But in the end, he could only say very simple words, “”I’m very sad.”
“I know,”
Her mother nodded gently, her voice soft and gentle, as if she was afraid of scaring Lu Xin.
His younger sister beside him also nodded vigorously.
“Everyone has times when they feel very tired.”
Her mother smiled. you don’t want to do anything. You don’t want to care about anything. Of course, you can have it.
“So, if you’re feeling very sad and tired right now, then we don’t have to care about anything. Let’s go home now, have a good meal, take a bath, and then have a good sleep. Everything else has nothing to do with us. We don’t have to carry these things all the time. It’s good enough that we can live well. Why can’t we just make it easier for ourselves?”
This world doesn’t need a sad person to save it …
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“..”
His mother’s words made Lu Xin feel like crying.
These words hit the spot in his heart that he desired the most.
He really didn’t want to do anything. He didn’t want to care about anything. He didn’t have any strength at all. However, when his mother said these words gently, he felt that in his empty heart, there was something that he couldn’t explain clearly …
It was indeed good to let go of everything, go home, take a shower, and have a good sleep.
But …
He was silent and did not move. However, he saw teacher Lu who was on the verge of breaking down from self-blame, the angry security guard, number eight who was helpless and depressed, the law enforcement officers who came into the elementary school in groups and brought great pressure to everyone, and the pair of eyes in the air that brought endless pressure to qinggang when they opened.
He could even feel doll’s mental power clashing with the pair of eyes in the sky.
He could feel the chaos and tension in the cities of qingang …
His desire to go home and have a good sleep was in stark contrast to the chaotic situation in the various cities.
Thus, he was silent for a long time in this intertwining and surging different emotions.
“I’m still a little unwilling …” She whispered to her mother.
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When they heard him say this, whether it was his sister or his father behind him, they were all slightly nervous and their eyes lit up.
Her mother’s expression also brightened up a little. Then, she became more patient and said softly, “”What are you unwilling to accept?”
“. lot of …”
Lu Xin thought about it carefully.
He was also thinking, what else could he not accept?
According to history, the ‘truth’ that miss Lu had told him meant that he did not have to show up in the first place.
He had already been denied.
Right now, he didn’t care about anything and just wanted to go back to sleep. That was what he wanted the most.
However, there was still a trace of unwillingness in his heart, like a child trying to regain the last bit of dignity.
His mother’s concerned eyes gave him the courage to say this.
“Because things shouldn’t be like this …” She said softly.
Lu Xin’s mother looked at him with a relieved expression. After a long while, she hugged him and said softly, “”Very good …”
you’ve already started to feel your own spiritual core …
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As she spoke, she took a few light steps forward and reached out to grab the gun in the old security Guard’s hand.
since it’s not right, then let’s let things go back to the way they should be …
“We do have the ability to do so.”
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“..”
The moment the senior security guard grabbed his grapeshot gun, everyone in the room turned to look at Lu Xin.
In the dimly lit office, Lu Xin lowered his head and remained silent. However, he gave off a strange and disjointed feeling. He was clearly standing there all alone, but the air around him was rippling faintly, making one’s heart tighten …
They were stunned for a moment, and the sound of their breathing was suppressed. They could only hear Lu Xin’s soft voice.
The voice kept changing its tone. Sometimes it was confused, sometimes it was gentle, and sometimes it was clenched like a little girl.
He kept repeating all kinds of words, ” right? let’s not care about anything else. We’ll be fine after going back and sleeping, right? ”
“But I’m. little unwilling …”
“Why not?”
“Brother, you can do it!”
kill them! Kill all these idiots who don’t know anything …
there are a lot of things that I’m not willing to accept. I don’t want to give up such a good life, and I don’t want to live alone anymore. Just like in the past, I didn’t like those people, and I didn’t care about them. But when I was alone, my heart …
“.. I’m so sad!”