Episode 66
Translator : Missme   Editor : Aru

Mag Jaang was surprised at the moment he found a splendid and vivid enemy that could be distinguished at a glance from afar.

‘Why is she here?’

But the surprise was brief. Soon a brilliant idea came to mind.

‘This is a chance.’

He recently had some regrets about his opponent who turned the situation over as a mere coincidence and made him leave his seat quietly.

‘At that time at the market how much she had humiliated me.’

He thought he had to give that bitch woman a stingy taste like that.

Mag Jaang deliberately shot an arrow at the horse on which the princess was riding.

He didn’t aim at people on the horse because he wasn’t confident about it. But it’s enough to make the horse jump and rage after being hit by an arrow which ‘accidentally’ shot. It doesn’t matter if the person on the horse falls off and gets hurt a bit.

Of course, shooting an arrow wasn’t a mistake but that’s enough.

‘Ha, I never thought he’d catch it.”

Unlike what he planned, Mag Jaang did not achieve his purpose.

The knight next to the princess grabbed the flying arrow with his bare hands. As soon as Mag Jaang saw it, he turned the horse around and ran away.

‘Is The Duke’s knight possible to do something like that?’

It was absurd. And it was a shame to fail since the chance came as if it was sent from heaven.

‘I wanted her to at least fall and break one leg. Well, I can’t help it. It’s a shame, but I’ll run away like this and just pretend nothing happened. …..’

It was then.

Puck!

Neighhhhh!

“Argh!”

An arrow hit the leg of a running horse and made the horse fall.

Mag Jaang, who fell off the horse, could not overcome inertia and rolled over and slammed his head against the tree.

Soon a man appeared before the drooping Mag Jaang.

“Oh yes.”

Dressed in black colour made its gender hard to guess, the person looked proud. Satisfied, he clenched his fist into the air and soon took out a small sphere from his bosom.

“Master, I caught the suicide seeker.”

From the small sphere, a fire sparkled and the dry answer returned.

-Okay.

There was not a word of praise for doing well. Well, it doesn’t really matter.

He didn’t mean to be praised anyway. As a member of the organization, he was just faithful to his role and paid for it according to his master’s orders.

“He fainted. Should I leave him as it is? Or should I take him away?”

-Leave him be.

“Yes sir, I understand.”

He reeled the sphere, a magic tool for communication, and looked down at the unconscious Mag Jaang.

He shrugged.

“Ckck, these days, even suicide attempts are very creative. If you want to die, just hang yourself from a tree. It’s easy, fast, traditional, and how good it is. But it’s something I can’t understand anyway.”

Soon, after preventing any possibility of Mag Jaang waking up by hitting the back of his head which had already fainted, the person disappeared into the air as he appeared before.

***

Ash hugged me and left the hunting ground.

I was worried about Irene and Sir Davery, who were left in the place, but Ash’s movements made me too unabashed to look back at them.

In my heart, I asked Sir Davery to look after Irene.

We headed straight for the mansion. As I got off the carriage, I stumbled for a moment and I had to come into the mansion held by Ash.

I’ve already said that I’m okay and can walk by myself, but it didn’t work.

‘I’m shy.’

The butler and Bessie went wild about what’s going on when they saw me come in like a patient.

I said that the fever seemed to have arisen because of the flu. It wasn’t entirely a lie. I’ve been feeling dizzy since a while ago, and I’ve wondered if I really have a fever.

‘How can I have a fever over something like that?’

It was an amazing act.

‘It’s really unusual.’

As it did last time, someone else was hurt, but why am I in this mess?

Ash dropped me off on my bed in my room. I lay down and looked up at Ash, feeling my body drooping heavily like watery cotton.

In this situation, I opened my mouth, thinking that it is absurd for my eyes to stay on Ash’s jawline or nose, which seemed to be drawn even when looking up from below.

“The hunting competition…..”

“..….”

“Aren’t you disqualified if you come out on the way like this?”

“I suppose so.”

Would it be too late to go back right now?

Well, of course, it would be late. Considering the time it takes to get to and from the capital.

“……you said you were going to win.”

I said what I had been worried about since we left the hunting ground. The answer fell off without even showing signs of agonizing.

“I don’t care about that.”

Just before the start of the competition, Ash had a subtle war of nerves with The Crown Prince for the competition.

I was about to mention it and soon shut my mouth.

It’s a hunting competition that’s already started and soon finished. Now, the only thing that I can keep bringing up was to make sure Ash had not thrown away another important thing because of me.

I was embarrassed for no reason, so I fidgeted with the quilt and pulled it up with an awkward touch, but Ash reached out and touched my forehead.

His hand stayed like that for a while, as if measuring a fever, and then fell back again soon.

I almost gasped at the moment, but I held on to my reason and swallowed a scream instead of sighing.

‘Get a hold of yourself?’

Woah, I can’t believe what would happen if I let my guard down.

While I was so preoccupied with distrust and shock toward myself, Ash’s voice was heard.

“Where does it hurt?”

I blinked and shook my head.

“You have a slight fever, how’s your head?”

“I’m all right. It’s a little dizzy, but, uh, that’s all.”

After answering like that, I hesitated a little and continued.

“I came into the hunting ground…… was my insistence. I was going to come out right after a short tour of the forest.”

“……”

“I didn’t know it would cause you inconvenience and make you worried. I’m sorry.”

‘Honestly, I didn’t know.’

I thought it was over when I found Irene without any problems and took her out smoothly.

Ash answered slowly without haste.

“That’s okay. As long as you’re not hurt.”

“…….”

“I’ve told you before. As long as you’re safe, whatever you do is fine.”

“……”

“It’s still the same now.”

The quiet surroundings, without a single noise, suddenly feel resentful. I felt like I could hear my heart beating a little.

“Noonim.”

“Huh?”

I carefully raised my gaze, which had been lowered at an angle for fear of being caught.

“Remember when I said if you got hurt then the rest will be responsible for it?”

“B, but I’m not hurt.”

Ash smiled lightly when I spoke hurriedly as an excuse.

A calm hand swept my forehead and handed over my hair, giving no time for me to calm my trembling heart at his smile.

I held my breath.

“When I think about it today, I feel like I’m including in ‘the rest’.”

“……”

“I don’t think I can forgive myself if something happens to you.”

So please don’t get hurt. Ash added affectionately and tenderly, as he handed over my hair.

I closed and opened my eyelids very slowly.

Is it because of the fever?

This moment, which cannot be said to be strange, felt as if it were unrealistic.

‘Oh, no.’

It’s not that.

‘I want it to be unreal.’

It’s just that I hope this isn’t real.

That way, I can spit out words that seem to be blocking my throat.

Actually, since Ash first appeared in the forest and hugged me, it seemed like I really wanted to rub my lips so the lingering words that I really wanted to say could flow out.

I thought of Irene. I couldn’t see her face with her head down, but irene’s heart-felt expression with her trembling voice filled my mind.

Come to think of it, Irene has always been honest. Even when I was questioned about why she spilt wine to my dress at the party, and at the hunting ground too. She didn’t hide her feelings for Ash at all.

I gently took my hand off the blanket out of sight and held them.

‘I envy her.’

I really envy her.

I felt nauseous. I was so envious of Irene now that I couldn’t bear it.

It was only when I saw Irene revealing her mind without hiding it that I realized.

How painful it is not to be able to do that.

No matter how much I press and swallow those feelings, the fact that I can’t show my heart so tempted me and makes me difficult.

‘I like him more.’

It’s not that I don’t know that it’s useless to put a human mind that didn’t have any shape on a scale. But–

‘I like him a lot more.’

But Irene can talk about it while I can’t.

I can’t do that.

‘Unfair.’

I knew I insisted on it. I knew that this nonsense complaining was also very childish.

But I couldn’t help it. If I didn’t have this kind of resentment, I couldn’t bear this painful feeling.

I was dizzy, so I raised my arms and covered my eyes.

The hand that slowly handed over the hair that stuck to the face stayed on the forehead again.

I thought as I bit my lips to the sensation that came more clearly because I blocked my view.

There are many gods in this world.

Although there are currently only three gods who set up the temple, there are many gods in the record. From mischievous God that you haven’t heard wherever you are, to ridiculous God who will make you wonder why that is.

So if there’s a god who looks at me personally, he must be a cursed god of cruelty that lives on suffering and sadness.